Self Healing Techniques: Tapping Your Way Through Resistance

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Lately, I have been engaged in a dance with the darkness, also known as resistance. Inner soul basher is a better description. Steven Pressfield writes beautifully of this in his book The War of Art. It seems to me the more I invite the light in, the more the darkness seems to pull out all the stops and throw down seemingly treacherous obstacles.

It dawned on me this morning, just before my meditation and tapping, that I have lived under the influence of resistance for most of my life. In other words, I have been a fully fledged member of the dark side’s team for nearly half a century, so perhaps it isn’t going to let me go without a fight, particularly since I have been such a diligent and rule abiding member.

I also realized that monks meditate an entire lifetime to achieve enlightenment. I felt just a little relieved to comprehend that I am up against some pretty big odds on this journey to my higher self.

There are days when it seems like it would be a hell of a lot easier to just throw in the towel and stay on team darkness, but there is always the voice: the quiet one that I hear beckoning to me in the background when resistance ups the ante. Everything this other voice says makes sense in a comforting and wise way, whereas the critical voice tends to be overly-dramatic and shrill.

I’m not one to give up. I have always been a seeker, finding the other way in to what I want. If there is a way to make it happen, I can generally sniff it out, but I have to admit this resistance thing is a daunting opponent. Do you find this as well?

I hold it up to the light and try peering through it, to see the reasons for its existence, but come up empty. If the universe wants us all to be happy and feel loved, why does it make things so difficult? I mean really, w-h-y?

I’m about as Zen as they come these days and have steeped myself in all things woo-woo. I would say that, in general, I feel better than in days of old, back when I simply lived in obedience to the voice. Things were deceptively simpler then. I was unhappy, but it was familiar and seemed normal, so I just accepted it and lived with my discomfort.

During fleeting moments, when a crack in the surface of my life would appear, I would peer in and wonder if there might be more to life than what I saw and plaintively ask, “Is this all there is?” The darkness would oblige and provide me with proof that, yes, that’s all there is. Rocking the boat or taking a leap into the unknown seemed a frightful endeavor, certainly well beyond my capacity, so I would carry on in the same manner as before.

Tiptoeing along the edges of what lay on the other side.

Post-2010, with the surface of my life having been shattered, I live in the world I used to only get glimmers of. There has been a learning curve adjusting to life without the veneer. There was a lot of beauty hiding under there, so I suppose I am still getting used to this feeling of being vulnerable and raw. Perhaps it is precisely because I am in this tender state that the darkness sees an opportunity to rush in and try to reclaim my allegiance with such force.

Do you have this experience of the inner critic becoming more and more fierce? One of the best ways I have found to quiet it is through EFT, or tapping. What do you do to quiet the resistance?


Who is Dianna Bonny?

Hi, my name is Dianna Bonny. It’s my mission to candidly share my journey with you. For me, it’s all about the healing: to create a radiant healing energy for others who have befallen a similar fate. Together, we can forge beautiful lives of belonging and connection. Thanks for joining me today! I look forward to hearing from you.

  2 comments for “Self Healing Techniques: Tapping Your Way Through Resistance

  1. March 31, 2014 at 11:02 pm

    Hey Dianna, Thank You for your share. Beautiful, real post that I’m sure many will find inspiring and reassuring for many years to come.

    Earth is going through such a consciousness shift. It’s almost glib writing that. And we’ve entered another rapid frequency shift period that is already intensifying and will continue to the end of 2016. In this new phase we’ll be seeing much deepening of the balancing of the Divine Feminine. Hang on for the ride and know that your processing, healing and integration of your own Divine Self into your daily life is an important part of this process of collective consciousness evolution.

    I use Motherpeace cards to help me hear my messages when I’m not trusting Guidance I’m getting or when it doesn’t feel clear. And emotional release is just basic to clear resistance and allow in and ground more fifth dimensional frequency in its place.

    Blessings on your journey and Angel Hugzzz…

    • Dianna Bonny
      April 1, 2014 at 5:07 am

      Thank you Angela! I will have to check out Motherpeace cards. I am excited to be a part of the consciousness shift having gone through my own transition these past few years. Things don’t seem as threatening when connected to a greater energy. I appreciate your insight and encouragement. xo

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