Tonight’s the Night: Stepping Into the Void for Healing and Transformation

“It is through your body that you realize you are a spark of divinity.” –B.K.S. Iyengar

Well, the day has arrived and tonight I shall be stepping onto the stage to sing my song. It is difficult to describe the peace I feel about doing this now, having practiced and prepared as much as possible. All songs are committed to memory and the movements will hopefully now just be an extension of the rehearsals and happen in the moment.

I think the biggest and most important piece, however, has been just surrendering to the entire thing.

Two things I want to share as I stand on this side of the threshold, just over yonder from the finale:

One, I have learned that I have placed a lot of restrictions on myself and now I am curious as to why that is. I look back on a few months ago, when I saw my friend sing in her Breakthrough concert, and the idea that ran through my head was, “I could never do this.” That was my initial thought — and usually that kind of mental stop sign will halt me in my tracks, without any further exploration. I just cling to the belief like a life raft and float on by any potentially life-changing experiences.

For some reason, thank goodness, I had another thought just after that, thinking that it would be really cool to participate. Why not?

This makes me wonder: Where else in my life do I place these unquestioned restrictions that limit my experience here on Earth?

The second thing I have discovered is that I seem to need a lot of permission to express myself. During one of the final practice rounds, I sang my song and the leader said to me, “OK, that was great, but now I want you to try it with more soul. This song is a deep, earthy song with a lot of soul and I want to feel that when you sing it.”

Well, I had been thinking that I wanted to sing it from a soulful place, but that meant really letting myself go and I was uncomfortable with doing that on my own. As soon as he said this to me, I suddenly had an invisible permission slip to just be me.

So, the second time I sang the song was entirely different than the first, which was kind of fascinating to observe. Why the need for permission?

Perhaps the answers will present themselves to me later tonight after I step off stage.

Stay tuned.

-db

Who is Dianna Bonny?

Hi, my name is Dianna Bonny. It’s my mission to candidly share my journey with you. For me, it’s all about the healing: to create a radiant healing energy for others who have befallen a similar fate. Together, we can forge beautiful lives of belonging and connection. Thanks for joining me today! I look forward to hearing from you.

  4 comments for “Tonight’s the Night: Stepping Into the Void for Healing and Transformation

  1. July 22, 2013 at 7:31 am

    Woo Hoo Dianna! Congratulations for taking the risk and giving us all your awesome, soulful breakthrough performance.

    Thanks for the inspiration and for sharing your insights on how the need for permission get’s in our way. You rock!

    • Dianna Bonny
      July 23, 2013 at 8:12 pm

      Thank you so much for being there to witness me Rhana:) It was such a life changing experience. Having the support of family and friends made it magical. xx

  2. July 23, 2013 at 3:39 pm

    I am a person waiting for permission.

    Have a great time in doing your song.

    Liked this post.

    • Dianna Bonny
      July 23, 2013 at 8:11 pm

      You will add your beauty to the universe when you give yourself permission Anne. Singing was a blast because I finally gave myself permission to sing. Thank you so much for being here. xx

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